ryn: is there still has a hope for me??

hai with me again... i want to share with you all about someone that i knew.. about someone that i cared and thought about every single day in my life..

i have a friend..(of course everyone has a friend)
he was so kind toward me..
he help me a lot with my works..
he made me happy and never made me cry..
i always felt safe with him beside me..
he never leave me alone..
if everyone hated me, he will be loved me..
that is HE.. a true friend..

enough with HE, now read about SHE..

SHE..
i don't know how to explain about her..
no words to describes about her..
she is someone that i can truely depends on..
on her shoulder i always cry on..
she help myself to build my self confidence..
she take care of myself, like what a mom does..
with her beside me, i know what is loving and caring means..
that is SHE, who loves me deeply...

we all having a happy time together... we shared all things together.. we spended money and wasted money together.. that us... doing crazy things all together... we studied together to accomplish our target.. we ate, sleep together.. we played and disturbing people until they want to kick us.. we hang out until our parents scolded us.. that were us, never felt sad and thought about problems.. just in our mind that we don't want every single minutes goes like that.... we must filled it with ENJOY and HAPPY..

UNTIL....
one day everything going to be different.. everyone have changed a lots.. everyone seems hated me a lots.. everyone are going too far from me... no more big smile for me, no more friendship kissses for me... what they have..... NO MORE SPACES FOR SU... why?? is that my mistakes?? i not asking to be like this.. i am not asking to you all love me and then just in one minutes hated me.. no, i am not!! why you don't understand?? where were you when i really need you when i felt myself so bad?? where were you when i need someone to talk with?? where are you guys??????? why you do like that to me?? why you all are so egoistic?? why you all thought about that stupid thing?? why you really cared about that?? i need you all... in my life again.. please guys.. i love you.. give me a hope once again.. i missed what we had been through... take care guys..~