It’s been a while that I haven’t posted any blog here. I’ve been quite busy with the assignments and test as well as the final examinations that are just around the corner.
Last October 7th, I lost my dear grandmother. She passed away at the age of 94, if I am not mistaken. She had a good life. I guess so. She’s a great woman.
My grandmother actually passed away 20 years after my late grandfather. I was wondering how my grandmother survived, living 20 years without her beloved husband, raising 8 children on her own. It is definitely not an easy task. She must be gifted with huge courage.
Only when my grandmother passed away that I knew that she used to have breast cancer once upon a time ago. My uncle told me that one of her breast was actually already ‘dead’. God willing, she manages to get through it and live her life longer than anyone could imagine.
For the first time, I guess, I saw such an amazing life drama. Of how one’s death could actually unites one family. I was really touched to see siblings held their hands together and cried for one reason. Their tears were for one. It’s for their mother. Technically, they’re just too old to cry for their mother. But the truth is, no one is too old to cry for their mother.
At the cemetery, I saw my grandmother was buried next to her beloved husband’s grave. It was such an indescribable feeling to see the children crying to see their mother were buried next to their father’s grave. It’s good to be buried next to your love one’s grave, but to the people who are still living in the world, it’s just so emotional. It’s indescribable.
That night, I accompanied my father to the airport to send my two brothers who have to go back earlier as they got some other things to be done the next day. My father dropped my brothers at the entrance and we went to park the car at the parking space. As my father locked the car, he said to me “adik, tok dah takde kan”. I saw his eyes were tearing. He looks so confuse. So lost and miserable. I could not say anything at that moment as I didn’t know what I should say to make my father feel better. I just give him a smile and held his hands. I don’t want my father to be sad. He’s not that healthy to be confuse and sad. I don’t want anything bad happen to him.
It is sad to see people are mourning for their loved ones. Losing something that you love all your life is not an easy thing that you could accept and adapt in a second. Sometimes it takes longer than you imagine.
I was really sad with the lost of my grandmother. But somehow, I felt that it was the best full stop for her. She had been suffering from strokes for so long that she just couldn’t do anything else on her own any more. I guess she had a good life before. I hope she did. Because I wanted her to have one to.
I’ve been away from UiTM for about 3 days when my grandmother passed away. I was really learning the true meaning of a family in my life. When I got back in UiTM, I learn to love ones that I have more. I just don’t know when I will lose them and whom. I don’t want to but I’ll have to learn to.
During my Bel120 class yesterday, I was really surprised when teech actually asked the whole class to recite al-Fatihah for my late grandmother. I was about to cry at that moment but I tried to calm myself and just act cool. But honestly I thanked you guys so much for doing it. Thank you so much teech! And you guys too! May Allah bless my grandmother and you guys also!
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