hidayah-happy day

Today is my happy day because i meet my friend. I'm really really miss her and tomorrow is 'hari raya'....i'm so happy. i want to celebrate it with a full happy....but...final exam is so near with me...i'm very scared to face it...i will try my best to get a good result... insyallah...

ryn: what's up??

hello....
just drop by to say, i really thanks to ALLAH because ALLAH had helps me a lots..

i don't care what peoples are going to said about me now cz that is me.. SUHAIDA ERYNA BT TAJUDIN.. i really don't need people likes that in my life!! i had done my job as a student.. if they don't like the way i works so, get lost!! tq!!

ryn: feel so bad today...

i had read too many times teech blog.... i had sent too many comments but he didn't still approve it until now!! everyday teech!! why?? is that my grammar still doesn't improve?? why i was so stupid?? i learn grammar every night but looks like it do not helps me a lot!! see.. why it was like that?? GRAMMAR!! i miss my granma a lot now.... (v_v)

ryn: YA ALLAH...

Now I am worried about myself. My grammar is still bad even though I have tried to practices it all the time. At one point, I just wanted to give up in learning grammar. I felt so bad about it now. How I am going to faced with writing if my grammar still worse? I have done a lot of practice even though with the tips that have been suggested. So what I should do now?? the test is just around the corner and i felt so bad now!! i scared if i will failed this test. i knew, i didn't do well in my last test, which were speaking and listening test. Of course no body want to failed especially this paper. I don’t want to repeat it again in next semester. Felt so bad and shamed!! What can I do now, in last minutes is pray to ALLAH hope HE will helped me when the day comes. …amin

syarina: ifthar ramadhan!

i had the faculty dinner on 20 September 2008.....................................................................................



i'm felt very happy and enjoyed the dinner with my friend...................................................................



to attend the dinner all students from OM must pay RM18 for one person...................................



first notice about the dinner, i not very interested and planned to run from the dinner..................



all my friends and i was planned to excuse the dinner because i think the dinner not interested and the price was so expensive to pay........................



BUT.........................................................................................................................................................



before the dinner going on, we had a meeting with the senior who was organised the dinner........



the meeting is to confirm all part one must attend and support all the OMSA activities included the dinner. ........



after the meeting, we had suprise that the dinner not bad as we thought and change our mind to attend the dinner.........



the dinner was start at 5 p.m with a lot of activities.............................................................



all the students was came with new look especially me!



the dinner was happening, fun and full with surprise.........................................................



the food was very delicious !



i was so enjoyed the dinner with my friend and we not regret for pay RM18.



i will join all activities that OMSA organised and hope OMSA can planned more and interesting activities........

syarina: final exam is coming soon!

EXAMS STUDENT
NOBODY PLANS TO FAIL BUT FAILS TO PLAN.SO PLAN YOUR WORK AND

WORK YOUR PLAN

EXAMS,
Do come again
In the life of student.

EXAMS,
Why have you come?
Because of you,
Our lives aren’t free,
Waiting for you.

EXAMS,
Do you know?
Because of you,
Many suffer and fall,
You bring fears and tears.

EXAMS,
Do you also know?
Your preference the most important,
Student heart beat fast,
Searching for reasons why you have to come.


EXAMS,
Do you know?
Because of you,
Many front heart lose hope,

EXAMS,
One that is always,
In the mind of student,
We have to face you somehow,
With full force,
Whether you come,
For the good,Or the worse

ryn: is there still has a hope for me??

hai with me again... i want to share with you all about someone that i knew.. about someone that i cared and thought about every single day in my life..

i have a friend..(of course everyone has a friend)
he was so kind toward me..
he help me a lot with my works..
he made me happy and never made me cry..
i always felt safe with him beside me..
he never leave me alone..
if everyone hated me, he will be loved me..
that is HE.. a true friend..

enough with HE, now read about SHE..

SHE..
i don't know how to explain about her..
no words to describes about her..
she is someone that i can truely depends on..
on her shoulder i always cry on..
she help myself to build my self confidence..
she take care of myself, like what a mom does..
with her beside me, i know what is loving and caring means..
that is SHE, who loves me deeply...

we all having a happy time together... we shared all things together.. we spended money and wasted money together.. that us... doing crazy things all together... we studied together to accomplish our target.. we ate, sleep together.. we played and disturbing people until they want to kick us.. we hang out until our parents scolded us.. that were us, never felt sad and thought about problems.. just in our mind that we don't want every single minutes goes like that.... we must filled it with ENJOY and HAPPY..

UNTIL....
one day everything going to be different.. everyone have changed a lots.. everyone seems hated me a lots.. everyone are going too far from me... no more big smile for me, no more friendship kissses for me... what they have..... NO MORE SPACES FOR SU... why?? is that my mistakes?? i not asking to be like this.. i am not asking to you all love me and then just in one minutes hated me.. no, i am not!! why you don't understand?? where were you when i really need you when i felt myself so bad?? where were you when i need someone to talk with?? where are you guys??????? why you do like that to me?? why you all are so egoistic?? why you all thought about that stupid thing?? why you really cared about that?? i need you all... in my life again.. please guys.. i love you.. give me a hope once again.. i missed what we had been through... take care guys..~

ryn: my mind is still confusing babe!!

i am keep asking myself now....

what i am doing in here?
why i was here?
who i want to be when i get out from here?

that questions must be answered.. but by who?? is that by teech? or by my classmates even by my roomates?? who are them?? it is about ME!! myselF!! why they are so busy ask me to do this and don't that?? i not a kid which is will be happy when someone given me a lolipop.. no no NO!! i am a young girl.. a big girl which is will stand with my own legs and make my beloved proud of me.. this is me SUHAIDA ERYNA BT TAJUDIN!!

i am here to continue my studied in ART AND DESIGN and score highest mark in my exam even though i am not sure i will but i will tried my best to do so.. of cOurse people learn from their mistakes and people as well cannot run from mistakes!! this is life.. life need sacrifice......

fathi-..love story..

There was a blind man who used to hate everyone except his girlfriend..
He always used to say that, ”I’ll marry you if I could see..”

Suddenly..
one day, someone donated eyes to him and then when he saw his girlfriend,
he was completely astonished because she was also blind..

His girlfriend then asked him, “Will you marry me now..?”
The man simply refused..

So, his girlfriend just smiled away, and saying..
“JUST TAKE CARE OF MY EYES..”
I love you..

hye! i'm syarina

TEENAGERS
Teenagers are at confusing stage,
And everyone must face it with courage,
They are at crossroads of life,
Momentum decisions a way of life.

They start to treasure friendship,
And get involved in relationship,
They think they’re in secure,
With problems that they don’t quite foresee,
And don’t image there’ll even be.

Teenager are still growing,
And it’s just the beginning,
To learn one simple fact,
To change their childish act,
Learning begin their childhood ways,
Never to turn back to those old days.

We challenge comes and you cannot face,
Remember this comforting phrase,
Strong reaches beyond you Lange,
To accept the thing that you can
Be courageous like a Muslim,
Be wise in making a decision,
Be determined to finish you your mission.

fathi-miss you all..

I love to watching a movie..
If I has free time, I always went outing with my friends or my siblings to watching movie..
I like to watch English and Korea films..expecially about love..hehe..

Other than watching movie, I also like to play bowling..
I always play with my friends at Klang Parade and Mid Valley..
Bowling is the interesting game and can released my tension..

Now, in UITM, I’m very busy with my assignment..
Sometimes I back to my home, I didn’t have a time to go outing with my friends..
They also same like me, busy with their assignment..
I’m really miss the time when we hanging out together..
Hope, we can spend time to hanging out together on our semester break..

fathi-my listening test..

I’m very scared about my listening test..
Seriously, I cannot sleep well at the night.
I always think how the listening test because before this I didn’t ever do a listening test..
Teech says the listening test is not very hard but I don’t think so..

When the listening test had start, I don’t know what to do..
I just listening to the radio and didn’t ever answer the questions..
Thanks God, it repeat one more time..
After that, I know how the listening test and I can answered the questions..

Actually, I not very confident..
Before this, I put my marks for listening test is 9..
But, after the listening test, I changed my marks to 6..
I don’t know why I had changed my marks..
I hope so I don’t failed this listening test..
Insyaallah..

ryn : we sing, we enjoy and we win!!

hai... again with me.. here i want to tell about my best experience in UITM.. since i was in here, i felt unhappy, due to that i don't have anyone in here to play and talk with me ( close one).. until on day, my roomates and i were been called to contribute with koir for our college which is, kolej cempaka sari for FESKO.. waah, at first i hate that because it was a dancing!! i don't have any talent to dance and especially in front of too many student plus with the juries, and the VVIP peoples.. i thought that i don't want to go but with my roomates that is keep her mouth to us to go, so we go...

when we arrived in the Rekreasi room which is in kolej Dahlia, siswa block... we looked that there were too many students means too many contributions. so we decided to going back suddendly, our seniors called our name and want us to take part in koir. auch, it was so good and enjoy!! i want it.. i love it!! so i maked a decision to take part in koir, i go to abang Luqman and he was agreely to put me in for soprano voices.. tq abang luqman.. at first my roomates, don't want to take part so i don't care about them.. but i found out, they finally take part with me.. it was great rite?? we together again...

aah... so stress with the practices that we maked everyday and every time!! tired!! but what make me so annoying when the people which is should be in here on time, did not be in here ON TIME as they promise!! what a suck!! JANJI MELAYU!! that is why our country never success like JAPAN rite?? time is masa babe!!! the most i like is when we practice the songs in the late nite which is in 1.00 am in the morning in front of siswi2 Dahlia. know what they real;ly enjoy our songs and want to heared it again and again.. great rite?? we practice and practice until we lost our voice!!

what make me so enjoyable been in koir group is the seniourssss.... hehe.. they all are so cute and kind towards us especially me.. (",) however they are type of LEMBUT guy but they are not BAPUK k..!! they are so great, have a good voice and nice... thats are the reasons, why, i really enjoy the koir very much~but i reallt shocked when our conductor, abang luqman was not with us again and exchange with abang shaffie.. they both are interior desingner students.. i did not know why and felt so sad because abang luqman was not here.. he is amazing!! rock u bro!!

our song are kata and kiblat ku frm hazami and chantek( i can't remember the singer cz i hate this song).. and the songs keep change because big bro don't enjoy the song.. we change it too many time... and at last we choose, kata frm hazami and ikhlas tapi jauh from VE... so boring rite?? but the big bro makes the rythm for this songs powerful and we totally enjoy it!!

WHEN THE DAY COMES......

IN THE STAGE...




we enjoy.... yippy... however we did not get the CHAMPION but we are the champion in our team...~ u all are sweet babe!! hope this friendship will nvr ends eventhough we are not together

ryn: why???

this is my 3rd comments 4 teech blog.. why he did not approve my comment yet?? is that show my writing is so bad?? if that true, its mean i am in trouble babe!! the grammar test will be around!!! that will be in Wednesday... how i will survive babe??? even though i had tried so hard( i think) but i really scared due to that teech had already said that it will be 30% marks for GRAMMAR test!!! so, what u will do SUHAIDA ERYNA BT TAJUDIN??

but i really thank to ALLAh because i had already pass my speaking test.. nevertheless it was not a full marks but i really happy.... thank you teech!!

rehe : he's my dad.she's my mom.they're my family.

well since raya is just around the corner, and this is my first ramadhan as an university student, i am so excited about this coming raya. i don't have any space left in my mind to think about my examinations, assignments and what so ever it is supposed to be. haha

but well, this blog is dedicated especially to my family. it must be weird celebrating ramadhan without me huh.? haha


FOZIAN B ISMAIL
my super duper fantastic father.
he would usually be the one who says : yea you can have that. up to you.
haha
and during raya, he would be the one who takes the family picture of our family. and the pictures would always turn out to be, well, superb.
he's just my super cool dad.
love you abah!

HAFIDZATUL ADWIAH BT ABU BAKAR
she's the greatest mother in the world.
she's a simple lady that doesn't really mind to use the same curtains for raya. haha.
she made the best rendang ayam ever.
love you mama!

and oh! to my three brothers, well i love you guys too. but i'm in hurry now so i don't have much time to upload your photos. haha. even though i've always been treated like amah at home, you guys are just the best. despite of all the chaos you guys made. haha

well clearly i just love all my family.
can't wait to be home!

ryn: so depressing in speaking.....

Mostly my weakness is in speaking part. I’m shy to give my point of view instead of I feel like I was too stupid in English. My classmates in BEL120 are daring to stand up and get quarrel about what they don’t agree, nevertheless in other side, I was keep soundless and anxious to ask. At last I make a decision; I cannot stay live like this as I will die. So with the help of this article and counsel from teech, I now have a spirit to wake up from an ancient life and live with confidently in English. Thank you teech for the help!

this is my second post to teech....
i hope teech will approve it as i was trying my best for it..
yaah, so sad bcs at first teech did not approve it..
it make me feel like i was a dim in my grammar!!
to make it as story, i make all exercises in FOKUS ON GRAMMAR!! the blue one...
i want to prove to him that i will past all his tests especially for GRAMMAR...
so i really hope that i will not fail my grammar test which is just around the corners....(hope so)

for my speaking test in TUESDAY...
i was so nervous... truly nervous plus panicky!!
i hope with the article teech has post and his advice i hope i will past in green!...
so we will see SUHAIDA ERYNA BT TAJUDIN in TUESDAY at 2.00 PM... i feel like i'm going to die teech..................~

HIDAYAH-MY SPEAKING TEST WILL COMING SOON...

Oh no!!! speaking test will come...I'm really really scared about it. I don't know whether i can speak very well or not. Monday is my turn and the other my friends, only a few days i will face with it. I cannot imagine what will happen on that day. Many of my classmates are very clever... they know how to speak very well and faster. Sometimes i feel joules with them. Why i not be like them? i hope that i will past this paper... i don't want to repeat it...Please...

HIDAYAH-MY POEM

LIFE.....

Life...
Life is so beautiful...
Although sometimes,
It's full with anticipation

But,
We must awake that,
All anticipation is,
The test from God,
As a normal human being,
We must brave to face it

Because...
Every things that happens,
Must have its own wisdom,
We can't give up,
Without do anything...

Fairus-on Independence Day

Celebrate the independent day on UITM!! Actually I did not expect that I will have a chance to celebrate it as a university student. I feel so proud about that. Anyway the behaviors of some students in this university make me feel sad. Boy and girl walked together with holding hands without thinking of their pride as a Malay and Muslim. Sometime I feel that they just want to show to the world about their boyfriend or girlfriend. I also have one…but honestly I said that I never hang out with him and I still care my hand from touch any man besides my father and my brother. I know that some of my friend told that I just like a person that lives in back century. I never mind about that because my pride is more important than what my friend said. As we live in a country that free from colonial, we must set our mine free from the west culture. I know that some of person in this country always thought that west culture is the best…that was showed that their mind is still not free from colonial. As a Malaysian, we should think about this...

rehe : what time is it??

Today is the 9^th day of Ramadhan.

Well today is quite a tiring day, I guess. I don’t know why I said so but I’m just so damn exhausted today. Specifically, my brain is tired. My body is tired. I need some rest or maybe more rest. Seriously.

As usual, I have ATH class early this morning. Frankly speaking, I never like totally concentrate in this class. I love ATH. It’s really like so rehe. ATH is actually the short form for Introduction to History of Art. I don’t know why it is called ATH but yeah it’s ATH. We learned about, well all about the history of art. We have to memorize the name of drawings, when it was drawn, by whom and what so ever about the drawing.

Usually I would be sleeping like 80% of the period of this class. The class is fun but I don’t know why I would be so damn sleepy in this class. But somehow, today I guess I didn’t slept like I used to. I did sleep. But I guess I did concentrate in the class as well. Okayh sounds confusing, but erm it’s more like ‘tidur-tidur ayam’ la because if I’m not mistaken I did heard my lecturer’s voices. I could be dreaming but I guess it could be true too. Well I don’t really know.

By the end of the class, I got a super duper bad news. Well we have an extra class tomorrow. I am free at that time but I have tones of drawing to be done. I have about 10 drawings and mock-ups to be done by Thursday and I have to complete my building’s drawing which I couldn’t get any of my time to do so. Well I guess I am planning to not attend the extra class for ATH. For good.

The lecturer said that we would be watching a film of the renaissance and what so ever the time was. Well it would help a lot for the final, I think so, but then I have to finish my building’s drawing by tomorrow. I don’t have any other time to do so and that is the only free time I have. So I guess I have to skip the class, for good.

At 2 pm, I had my Bel120 class. Well I got more good news.

We’re having our listening, speaking and what so ever exams just around the corner.

Swear to god, I am so damn freaking out about the exams and everything. My life had been in a huge chaos lately since I have more and more assessments in one time. And now, I have more and more examinations. I am really freaking out right now.!

Honestly, I am having a major time management’s problem since I came here. I never like do everything on my own and swear to god, this is so damn frustrating. It’s even harder when I’m living with the datelines all the time.

It’s really stressing me out and I really want to use my time wisely. I took longer time to complete my drawings compare to my classmates as I have zero drawing skills. I just hope I would always improve myself and manage my time wisely. I really hope so.

fairus-holiday...

Holiday…I really miss my bed during study in university…on a mid semester break, do you know what I’ve done? Hehehe…I can’t stay away from my project as long as I’m not finish it yet… so I just spent all of my holiday on my bed with my VRD project… every day I just sleep on 6.30 a.m. and wake up on 10.am.. I don’t even help my mother for cooking because usually if I’m at home, my mother will not step into the kitchen. I’ll handle everything…luckily there have a lot of people can be a chef in my house… so there’s nothing that I’ve to worry about… back to the university… I haven’t sleep for almost one week to finish up the VRD project…that was a terrible life for me on that time…I feel jealous to my boy classmate because as a men, they have a lot of energy to finish up their project quickly… for me as a girl… I feel like almost loss my hand doing that work…what a tired and sick week! On that time also I’ve got a hot fever. The doctor suspicious me to have a dengue… I need to come to the clinic for a few time and I feel like it really wasting my time since my project still not finish yet… during assessment day, I came to the class with a terrible face because haven’t sleep for two days… on that time my lecturer said that I’m lazy person because my work cannot satisfy him… I feel like want to kill the lecturer… thinking positively, all of this taught me how to surface the world outside...

fairus-false dream...

FALSE DREAM...

Why everyone must have a dream
Building the castle on the air
Could it stand very well...?
If u fall down
Far away to the below
In deep of a sickness
Broken your heart
Without see it was bleeding
What shall I do?
Being me as your guide
I could not be
I’m neither a rose for you…
Nor even a carnation…
Sunshine is not belonging to me…
It just a cloudy…
Very heavy...
Heavy rain as it could…
Do you think that it will have a rainbow…?
Neither sunshine…nor rainbow…
There’s no life for you in me…
All of what you dream
It just a false dreamt.

This poem is about someone that begging for my love that I can’t give to him…my love towards his friend will never fade even thought his friend hate me so much... But I'm never asking for the answer... I can’t stopping someone from hating me but they also have no right to stop me from loving anyone that I want… …it’s enough for me to see his happiness from far away…

fairus-i'm back!!

Hi,I am back. This time i will story about the learning in our class for BEL120. I did not expect that I will watch a movie in a class. its really exciting. this is an enjoyable class that i've ever had. actually i want to story about my life compare to the story in the film, death poet society. learning in university make me try to thinking differently from usual. as a student in university, i must look the world from the other side. but the ending of the story in the film make me feel sad. this is because i had felt when one of my friend dead...it's really hard to say when someone that we talked,study and played together left us... it taught me about how to appreciate my life more than before because we don't know when we getting die...

rehe : when is raya huh.?

I haven’t posted any entries for quite some time, I guess. Well I had been very busy lately. As usual, it was all because of the vrd and drawing classes. Haha.

Well we’re in Ramadhan now! Honestly this is my first time fasting away from family and it’s like the first time I’m fasting and getting up for sahur on my own. It was really awkward to go through all this on my own as before this I always had my mother and family to wake me up and we’re like breaking the fast together.

My first day of fasting, it was only my roommates and I. All of us are away from family. We’re terribly missing our family. And it was a kind of emotional moment, maybe. Haha. While waiting for the time to break the fast, we talked to each other about our experiences during the Ramadhan and it just made missed my family so damn much.

Well despite of our unpredictable and unbalance emotions (haha), we would still have to go through this Ramadhan on our own. Well without the family and loved ones.
The next day was still awkward for me. Us maybe. But I think all of were just trying to be as cool as possible. Haha

Oh lord! I really can’t wait to go back home! I want to experience this Ramadhan with my family and loved ones! I want to experience the moments where my family and I went out to shop for raya and cleaning the house. Boy that was really the most memorable moments in my life.
I hope I would have the chance to celebrate this raya with my family and loved ones.! (:

hidayah-come back to the university

Oh! I had come back to the university after one week i had holiday at home. Until now, i still think at my parents... i really miss them. After come back to this university again, i hope that i can improve my study that i low.. i'm very scared when i think about the exam. Oh no... i can't imagine the result that i can get soon... i hope that i can past all the paper and continue my study at here until i graduade.